7/30/2006 6:55 am
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10/17/2006 8:47 pm
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but then, I am not seeking popularity persay... even as ego loves the spotlight and misses the applause, the art and craft was always more important than the reaction for me... and yet, here online as I reach out to find someone to relate to and dream of finding a partner to share this life, I wonder if popularity is the point...
after all, if my goal is to reach that certain someone that shares the same perspectives, values, ideals, and dreams, does not reaching the largest audience possible help me accomplish my goal here? (especially since I am a few standard deviations from the norms in many of my perspectives, values, ideals, and dreams)...
ah, but who has time for all the pandering it takes to become popular online?... not I and perhaps that's why I mock it and myself for mocking it 
I've been working a lot of extra hours this summer and have fallen a month behind on my daily rambles over at diaryland... I have been keeping up my blogspot updates for friends... I even spent a bit of time filling in and adding to my myspace (where I use one less o)... I have't had time to be online much, but how does one build an online notoriety without spending hours a day (or more) online?...
and then there's the fact that if I put my phone number in this entry (as I have before... shhhh) it will probably be deleted so the nature of this site is to turn us into voyeurs unless we're ready to invest time and money into jumping through hoops to get in touch with each other...
I wonder if I can be permitted to mention that you can find my number on my diaryland diary... if this post isn't deleted, perhaps I'll make more of an effort to post here and connect... I am quite content being in the background, actually... I only want to shine brightly just long enough to be noticed by one particular person... if that makes sense...
meanwhile, I've not slept in two days (the only way I find time to write a bit online these days... this summer has been too much fun to be writing a whole lot about it, so that's a good thing) so I shall pause now...
hopefully for less than a month this time
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4571 posts 7/30/2006 6:03 pm |
Hey...where have you been lately??
I'm not "stalker enough" to go tootling around for your number...besides if I called? I'd be too nervous to speak, you'd only hear heavy breathing on my end...
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16354 posts 7/30/2006 10:27 pm |
I visited your site a while ago...lotta words there, but very cool site!!! You are a busy busy mind.
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72 posts 8/7/2006 1:50 pm |
I opened this page to comment some time Sunday... life distracted me and I had to head out to work... seventeen hours later, I return from work and peer through bleary eyes to say thank you and good night... you've given me a smile to sleep on
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